name:Risa Miyazaki
gender: Female
interests: You♥,Photography, Basketball<3
occupation: student
Thursday, May 10, 2007
fuck luh.
im damn freaking stressed luh.oh fuckshit.why must it be like this,just bcos i forgot that i got tuition my mum scolded me and laoshis not even answering my calls and smses luh.fuck.i really dont get the point of living anymore.everythings all screwed up after getting into secondary sch.fuck.then on the way home i just blasted my handphone music,(usind earpiece) at leat im considerate.fuck. came home,that stupid asshole spoil my mood again.its just fuck luh.next time when i ask you to get out of the room just get out,i dont like throwing these kind of temper on you.then so i just offed the aircon,tv,lights and just slammed the door and got out of the room.yeahh. feel quite bad doing that, after all his my_______*but i was fucking pissed luh. sorry _____* talked to trina about everything. was just complaining non-stop. thanks trina,ILYdear. halfway talking my dad called and started nagging and nagging saying that my mum's going to scold and i better face it. fuck luh, he just called bcos of that? bloody shit. doesnt he have anything better than to make life more fucked up for me. and their fights i just cant take it luh.fuck.they havent fought since i dont know when,yet.but im very sure theyre going to fight again, soon.fuck,im very sure.no doubt. i just took verything out in ______* i think that it helps, seriously. i dont mind doing it everytime i feel fucked, cos its nice.yeahh.i feel much better,quite.i like the changes i did to myself too,its nice.i just dont know why, i seem like a different person when im in school, i look happy all the time, some people say, but,they dont know the pain i feel inside, oh fck.im not being emo.im just saying the truth. no one, nobody will know what?how i feel when im at home.fuck. its just like hell. i get scolded for almost everything i do, fuckass. RAHH.NOW IVE ANOTHER PROBLEM,______*i really dont know if i like her, i really dont._____*, i dont know if i still have feelings for her. maybe abit but the feelings' just not like last time.______* said i like _____* even though i said idk, she still said i did._______* was sad, idk why byt yeahh. i dont like to see people sad. and especially when its her.______* dont be sad anymore luh, okay.you may not know,but, iloveyou. i really dont know what makes me sttracted to her but i just like her. and its so random luh.shit.i dont know if what ____* said was true.shes another one adding f.problems to my life.fuck,i really dont like it when she vents her anger on me.im not there for her to vent her anger on.fuckass._____*: just go and continue to be a lian twit bung luh. dont bother saying that _____________* anymore. cos i dont and wont giive a damn shit about it anymore.both of us are not meant to be,maybe never. i dont and wont have feelings for someone like you, never. so dont come to me and say those kind of stuff. i treat you as a FRIEND!. thats all. a friend,not anything else. if you think thats not enough?, i dont care.go and hate me for all you want, i cant be bothered. sorry for the harshness and the way i put it but this is how i want it to be. thats alll.
i just called mama to tell her what we wanted for dinner, she sounded quite okay,meaning when nothing happens-quite cheerful voice. but i dont know, maybe its just for that moment .fuck,i wonder what stupid stuff is going to happen when she comes back.fuck,ive got to face it,it was my fault,but...forget it._______* understands, cos she really helped.yeahh
chloe,thanks for lending me that cutee thing.
trina,thanks for being the best, bestest friend
cherish,thanks for the starbursts.
felicia,thanks for keeping me company and taking careof me in the morning,ily.
______*,dont be sad anymore luh, i hate to see you like that.
im damn freaking stressed luh.oh fuckshit.why must it be like this,just bcos i forgot that i got tuition my mum scolded me and laoshis not even answering my calls and smses luh.fuck.i really dont get the point of living anymore.everythings all screwed up after getting into secondary sch.fuck.then on the way home i just blasted my handphone music,(usind earpiece) at leat im considerate.fuck. came home,that stupid asshole spoil my mood again.its just fuck luh.next time when i ask you to get out of the room just get out,i dont like throwing these kind of temper on you.then so i just offed the aircon,tv,lights and just slammed the door and got out of the room.yeahh. feel quite bad doing that, after all his my_______*but i was fucking pissed luh. sorry _____* talked to trina about everything. was just complaining non-stop. thanks trina,ILYdear. halfway talking my dad called and started nagging and nagging saying that my mum's going to scold and i better face it. fuck luh, he just called bcos of that? bloody shit. doesnt he have anything better than to make life more fucked up for me. and their fights i just cant take it luh.fuck.they havent fought since i dont know when,yet.but im very sure theyre going to fight again, soon.fuck,im very sure.no doubt. i just took verything out in ______* i think that it helps, seriously. i dont mind doing it everytime i feel fucked, cos its nice.yeahh.i feel much better,quite.i like the changes i did to myself too,its nice.i just dont know why, i seem like a different person when im in school, i look happy all the time, some people say, but,they dont know the pain i feel inside, oh fck.im not being emo.im just saying the truth. no one, nobody will know what?how i feel when im at home.fuck. its just like hell. i get scolded for almost everything i do, fuckass. RAHH.NOW IVE ANOTHER PROBLEM,______*i really dont know if i like her, i really dont._____*, i dont know if i still have feelings for her. maybe abit but the feelings' just not like last time.______* said i like _____* even though i said idk, she still said i did._______* was sad, idk why byt yeahh. i dont like to see people sad. and especially when its her.______* dont be sad anymore luh, okay.you may not know,but, iloveyou. i really dont know what makes me sttracted to her but i just like her. and its so random luh.shit.i dont know if what ____* said was true.shes another one adding f.problems to my life.fuck,i really dont like it when she vents her anger on me.im not there for her to vent her anger on.fuckass._____*: just go and continue to be a lian twit bung luh. dont bother saying that _____________* anymore. cos i dont and wont giive a damn shit about it anymore.both of us are not meant to be,maybe never. i dont and wont have feelings for someone like you, never. so dont come to me and say those kind of stuff. i treat you as a FRIEND!. thats all. a friend,not anything else. if you think thats not enough?, i dont care.go and hate me for all you want, i cant be bothered. sorry for the harshness and the way i put it but this is how i want it to be. thats alll.
i just called mama to tell her what we wanted for dinner, she sounded quite okay,meaning when nothing happens-quite cheerful voice. but i dont know, maybe its just for that moment .fuck,i wonder what stupid stuff is going to happen when she comes back.fuck,ive got to face it,it was my fault,but...forget it._______* understands, cos she really helped.yeahh
chloe,thanks for lending me that cutee thing.
trina,thanks for being the best, bestest friend
cherish,thanks for the starbursts.
felicia,thanks for keeping me company and taking careof me in the morning,ily.
______*,dont be sad anymore luh, i hate to see you like that.